Revistation
I guess i have to revisit some of my earlier decisions in light of new information.
I was told via TEXT by my estranged wife on July 27, 2010 that:
FW: Kelly Pope: I forgive u but move on i made my decison
I guess she’s given up completely and I can’t say I blame her one bit. But if that is her decision so be it, she will have to live with the consequences of her decision and I cannot be blamed for it. I accept the responsibility for my part in all this mess and whatever blame is truly mine as well.
I apologize for my behaviors, actions, decisions and just plain stupidity that lead to all of this. I have resolved to do better now, and for the remainder of whatever I have left in this life.
Kelly, I will always love you in one way shape or form. Don’t ask me to forget you because, that is simply impossible to do. I choose to forgive you for all the things that I either think you did, you did whether or not they are truly real or just percieved wrongs.
Go in peace, and I hope you find what you are looking for.
Love in Christ,
Douglas
Prayer for K
Father God,
I am praying for K right now, because I do not know what else to do. Please give her the strength she needs for each day’s tasks.
Give her the wisdom and knowledge to whatever is needed for the tasks. Bless her in whatever she does.
Give her mind peace, give her the ability to sleep peacefully at night in spite of the worries that are on her mind.
Please allow her to do the things she sets her mind to do, and bless it with Your Grace and Favor.
I ask that Your Will be done in her life whatever it may be.
12 Roses and Reasons
12. Out of all the people on the earth you chose me, Thank you
11. Your personality and abilities are complimentary to the weaknesses and strengths I possess
10. A source of strength you have been for our family
9. You have given birth to three wonderful children
8. You have been faithful in your words and actions from the beginning
7. You are a strong person who can do anything you set your mind to do.
6. You are capable of accomplishing amazing things
5. Your ability to endure bad things with a smile
4. This rose is for the future, unknown and unseen.
3. This rose is the forgiveness that you’ve given me.
2. This rose is for the vows and commitment made when we were first married
1. Above all these roses, you are the most beautiful one
Another Day, Another Site
Welcome to my very own WordPress site. I have to say thanks for WordPress for allowing me to have the software.
Keep in mind the site is a ever-developing site. I am having to relearn some of what I did in college as well as learn some of the newer technologies like CSS, ASP, SQL. I am old school, raw-code html writer. I learned it all by doing it the hard way. This was long before there where WYSIWYG programs like Claris HomePage ever came into existence.
I am currently developing my main site, http://www.bellepheron.com as a companion to this blog as well as possibly generate some much needed extra cash. It is my hope that people will read this and gain something from it.
I will post as often as I feel necessary, but I can guarantee I will make at least one post per week.
Routine
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the routines of life that we rely on so heavily, some so far as to be a rut even. Just a few days ago, I encountered one of those things of life we call a curve ball. As per a normal routine trip, my wife was picking up my daughter from her school at the usual time, and while she was walking she was clipped by a person in a vehicle who just ran off without any attempt to stop.
I do believe she was protected by an angel or something because I do pray for her, however, I was reminded of the possibility of losing her. She literally could be in a hospital bed right now, on life support with no chance of seeing the person I know again. Whether anyone likes it or not, I do pray for her safety to the God I believe in and let him do His job.
I love my wife dearly with all I can give, and I am grateful for her and all she does for this family.
While I like my routines, I do sometimes like to upset them just to be different from time to time, so perhaps some one else might consider doing the same thing.